I told WordPress to notify me twice a week that it was time to post something. I began immediately to resent this, and have ignored several notifications. This is me all over. It doesn’t matter if an event is in a calendar, on a chart, in my phone, in an email. As soon as I’m told to do something I’m not already happily doing, my RSD and defiance disorder go on high alert and I start deliberately, some might say belligerently, ignoring the notifications.
Which is why I have yet to discover an author business planning system that sticks. No matter how carefully I craft my quarterly plan, my weekly schedule, I just don’t do the dang work. I’m so good at ignoring important things that I started asking myself if I have Asperger’s. I so often refuse to do what’s best, even when it’s obviously what’s needed and would be really easy to do, though I genuinely do like myself, in a compassionate, c’mere you dumb-ass kinda way.
I think and think and think and in truth I probably just spend too much time alone. I can overthink anything, which can be good when you’re doing big vision work, and much less helpful when you’re trying to pick a task and stick with it until you can call it done.
Because I have so many things to do, it’s a struggle to prioritize. Everything feels like a priority, and I don’t want to spend all my time planning, but I’m not achieving much with the time I have so maybe what I really need is to get the heck over myself, sit down and do the work *I know* needs to get done, and let the rest fall into place.
The place where I get all of it right is just over the horizon. I have a flat tire and I’m fucking hungry, but if I can get this wheel back on, I can start rolling again and get to where I want to be.
Do you use a planner? Google calendar or similar? What works for you?